have you ever felt this way?

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretend that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish...

have you ever felt this way?

What I Never Said

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

(dikutip dari: http://www.boardofwisdom.com/default.asp?topic=1005&listname=Love)

random ingatan

gue tiba2 inget wkt itu pas ulum semester 2 kls 7, bel pulangnya bunyi trus pd desak2an di depan kelas bwt ngambil tasnya msg2. saking desak2annya gue ga sengaja nabrak orang, tp bukannya gue yg mental malah orang itu yg mental ampe hampir jatuh. gue langsung bilang, "eh, maaf!" gue gatau gue ngenain siapa td soalnya pas orangnya mental gue cuma liat punggungnya pas jatuh. Trus pas orang itu brdiri lg trus muter balik baru deh gue tau gue td nabrak siapa, yakni Ikmal. pantes aja dia yang mental, gue pikir. orangnya kecil bungkuk gitu sih.

pas tau itu ikmal, bukannya gue "aduh, maaf ya mal" ato apa, malah gue ngomong (secara refleks), "oh, trnyata lo doang."

si ikmal langsung emosi pas denger gue ngomong gitu. "enak aja lo ngomongnya 'gue doang'!" protesnya sambil ngambil tasnya. "lo mau jd yg mental kyk td? Lo doang, lo doang! Jahat banget"

gue lgsg ngakak trbahak2. lalu keluarlah ikmal dg tasnya and with his injured pride.

kekacauan kursi

sjak kls 7 emg kbiasaan gue duduk sbangku ama hepi. tp staun pengalaman pun ga bisa ngilangin bbrp konflik sehari-hari yg trjadi stiap kali gue ama hepi nyari bangku di kls brikutnya pas moving. cthnya:

1. duduk dimana? kdg2 kalo kta udah nyampe kls trus msh sepi, misalnya gue milih duduk di deretan bangku kedua, trus hepi milih yg di deretan ketiga. kalo mood kta sama2 lg jelek, kta bs beradu mulut mo duduk dmn. akhirnya hrs ada yg ngalah, tp pasti ada perlawanan dulu.

2. punya siapa? kdg2 jg kalo misalnya nyampe di kls telat trus bangkunya hampir smuanya udh penuh, gue ama hepi biasanya trpaksa ngambil bangku yg trbelakang/trdepan/trkotor/trabaikan. kalo yg trabaikan biasanya ada sampah2 di atas mejanya (kyk bungkus permen), tp kalo ada penghapus/pulpen/pensil yg ketinggalan dsn biasanya gue ama hepi memperebutkan apapun itu. byk org blg "klepto", tp gue ama hepi ngeliatny sprt pnghematan. dg cara mengklepto penghapus, misalnya, gue ga perlu ngeluarin biaya bwt beli penghapus (beli peralt scr debit --> kas (K), peralt (D)....................)

dan yg plg kronis...

3. gue yg duduk disana! di stiap bangku, ada dua kursi kan. (ya iyalah bleduk-_-) nah hri ini trjadilah masalah no. 3:

gue: "asik" *ngambil kursi sebelah kanan*

hepi: "gue yg duduk disitu!" *berusaha ngerebutin kursi*

gue: "ya udah si heeep" *hanging on to the chair for dear life*

hepi: "gue udah naro tas disana!"

gue: "gue udah duduk duluan!"

hepi: "iiiih britaaaaa!!!" *ngegoyang2in kursi*

gue: "duh duduk di sebelah kiri aja napa"

hepi: "gamauuu"

gue: "nyiksa bgt sih lo hep"

hepi: *makin semangat ngegoyangin kursi*

gue: "hati2 kek!"

hepi: "pindah dong!!!"

gue: "ngapain amat"

hepi: *tambah semangat ngegoyangin kursi, gue hampir jatuh*

lalu datanglah

arza: *tampang super innocent* "lha brit, gue duduk ama lo kan skrng? *kls mat*"

gue, hepi: ................................................................. *gue msh gelantungan di kursi, hepi msh pegangan kursi gue*

gue, hepi: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA AHAHAHHA AADUHHH BODOH BGT SIHH

arza: "???"

A Summer Gone

gue liat puisi ini di blog yg gue nemu di internet,namanya www.ohmygosh.blogspot.com (ya...random bgt emg), pas gue baca lgsg keinget ama piani soalny dy kykny demen ama puisi2 kyk gini:

summer quickly faded
and all the stars had turned to stone
out in the woods we waited
cause anywhere with you i knew i was home

you were all i wanted to see there
and that's the way it was and
we belong together
and thought we were crazy
we were so strong together
in this world you gave me
i thought we'd go on forever
and isn't that strange
all these things i thought would never change.

caded

gue pny temen (codename: A) dan dia itu, wlopun sbnrnya pinter, rada tolol jg. cth:

A: "ke pantai yuk!"

gue: "ini jakarta, bukan bahamas, ya."

A: "gapapa. ambil taksi trus ke ancol!!!"

gue: "ngapain amat ke ancol"

A: "kan, ada pantainya."

gue: "ya udah, tapi kamu yg nanggung biayanya yaa"

A: "siiiiiip!! eh, tapi---"

gue: "apa?"

A: "---dompetku ketinggalan."

gue: "di?"

A: "surabaya."

gue:".........................mau lo apa sbnrnya?!"

A: "yayayayya maaf maaf...gajadi! eh, emg bahamas itu apa?"

gue: "kepulauan di karibia"

A: "karibia itu di afrika bukan?"

gue: "...bukan"

A: "kanada?"

gue: "bukan"

A: "turki?"

gue: "bukaaaaan udah, diem aja"

A: "ya trus, dimana"

gue: "pokoknya...kalo mo tahu, tanya belieber aja. biasanya sih tau."

A: "emang hubungannya apa sama justinbieber?"

gue: "ada...kan...tempat romantis gitu"

A: "oh....gitu." *hening* "tapi, apa hubungannya sama bieber?"

gue: "...........................@#$#%#$@!!! udah diam sajalah kau"

A: "okedeh"

slurpee = pengobat stres

hari pertama uhbt, tgl 11 okt 2010, trdiri dri:

~ pkn *face-palm* *melolong tak berdaya*

dan

~MATEMATIKA *horror-movie scream in background* *kejangkejang* *pingsan*

jd, untuk mengobati stres, hepi menawarkan utk prgi ke 7/11 pulang sklh bwt beli slurpee. krn gue plg nebeng dy, gue stuju2 aja.

tapi dlm prjalanan ke mobil hepi yg slalu diparkir di blkng taman langsat.....

ngebayanginnya gini aja deh: lo lg jalan bareng sahabat lo di jalan yg sepi, suasana adem, lg asik2nya ngobrol ama sahabat lo itu. pokoknya, hidup tuh rasanya udh nikmaat bgt. lalu tiba2, pas lo belok kiri ngambil jalan kecil yg ada di blkng taman langsat itu, lo ngeliat suatu pemandangan yg, tanpa diragukan lg, erotis dan sgt tdk pada tmptnya. lgsg deh, hidup jd ga trlalu nikmat lg.

trnyata, di jalan kecil td, ada dua anak smp lg pacaran di atas motor yg diparkir di pinggir jalan. mksdny mreka lg ciuman dg penuh smangat--bahkan keliatannya kyk si cowo nya lg makan wajah cewe nya itu. jijik bgt deh pokoknya.

nah, lo kalo liat kyk gitu bakal ngapain? kalo gue, scr otomatis gue muter balik biar bisa kabur ke arah yg brlawanan. tp hepi, yg gabisa ngeliat mreka dg jelas krn matanya minus, mncengkram lengan gue trus nanya "knp lo brit?" trjepit dan tak berdaya, akhirnya gue trpaksa jalan melewati mreka brg hepi (gue ngunyah crepes sebanyak2nya biar gaada yg ngeliat cengiran di muka gue yg slalu muncul kalo gue liat ssuatu yg gue anggep menggelikan). pas kta brdua udah aman di dlm mobilnya hepi, gue lgsg nyeritain smuanya ke dia. sama kyk gue, hepi ikutan geli. gue blg, "ga romantis bgt deh. biasanya org kan kalo ciuman pas prom, di karnival, gitu2 kan. ini apaan, udah ciuman, di atas motor belekan di pinggir jalan di blkng taman bau. mana mesranya?udah gitu cowo nya jelek trus rambut cewe nya abal. eh gajadi deng--setting nya emg cocok bwt mreka." hepi lgsg mnyetujui, "emang. kan sama2 jelek!"

abis itu kta ke 7/11, trus hepi beli slurpee yg gede dg campuran electric blue, cairan ungu yg gue lupa namanya, sama brain freeze (gue dri dulu emg benci brain freeze, tp electric blue sm yg ungu2 itu gue suka. jd gue tetep minta bagi-____-) trus abis itu kta pulang.

kelindes trotoar

wkt itu arza lg ngejelasin ke gue ttg limbad. nafsu bgt lg:

arza:"dia tuh hebat bgt brit!!!!!"

gue:"emg iya ya?"

arza:"masa dia pernah kelindes trotoar tp msh hidup!" *nadanya earnest bgt*

gue:"..................................." *natap arza heran*

arza: *hening* "EH EH MKSD GUE-----!"

gue: "AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHHA, AHAHAHHAHAH-HA-HAH!" *ngakak se-ngakak2-nya*

arza: "HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEH, HEHEHEHEHEHE-HE-HEH!" *ikut ngakak sejadi2nya*

gue: "kelindes trotoar?!?!??"

arza: "mksd gue, kelindes traktor!!!!!!!!!! salah ngomong!!!!!!"

gue: *udah trlanjur ngakak lg* "oke,oke"

abis itu gue crita ke hepi naffia dkk yg duduk di sebrang kta trus mreka ikut ngakak. kasian arza-_-

hujan, bajai, dan bride wars

belakangan ini stiap hari pasti hujan--hujannya ga nanggung2 lg. kalo ga deres tp bentar, biasa aja tp lamanya naudzubillah min dzalik. nah kmaren kan shrsnya gue softball, tp gara2 cuaca yg bikin gedek itu, gajadi deh.

plg sklh, gue ama piani ke mayestik dulu. awalny, kta mo ke lapangan nebeng ama ka gia soalnya hepi ama safina ada raker(rapat kerja). dan krn kls 9 slalu ada paket plg sklh, trus gue jg pengen beli tas baru, akhirnya kta make wkt yg ckp lama itu bwt ke mayestik.

kesananya kta jalan kaki soalnya deket (pas ngelewatin stan es doger piani tergoda utk beli) trus pas mo msk mayestik piani beli majalah gogirl edisi oktober jd kta nelusurin jalan2 penuh mobil dan pedagang itu dg gue yg buta arah dan piani yg sibuk ngarahin sambil nenteng2 majalah ama es dogernya itu.

akhirnya sampailah jg di tempat yg jual tas shrg 20.000 itu dan piani ga buang2 wkt bwt ngemintain contoh smua wrn tasnya sama mas2 toko. gue ampe kebingungan liat pilihan warna sbnyk itu disodorin ke gue, jd gue makan waktu lama bgt bwt mutusin mo tas mana.

"duh..kira2 yg bagus wrn apa"

"terserah lo"

*ngambil tas kuning ngejreng* "abel" *ngambil tas putih* "lo" *ngambil tas ungu* "..." *ngambil tas biru muda* "nanti warnany nabrak kalo gue make baju wrn gelap* " *ngambil tas ijo, merah, merah marun, coklat* "mm...jangan deh" *ngambil tas item* "yg ini aja deh"

pas kta keluar, langitnya udah mulai gelap. piani panik. "naik bajai aja yuk!" "lha kan labschool deket pi" "iya tp kykny mo hujan niih!" "ya udah ya udah" alhasil kta naik bajai kmbali ke labschool trus pas nyampe sana langitnya udah mendung bgt.

lima menit kemudian, hujan turun dg derasnya kyk org kebelet kencing yg akhirnya nemu toilet disertai dg angin kenceng dan petir. krn udah ga mungkin bgt bakal ada latian softball dlm cuaca kyk gt gue ama piani mutusin bwt ngungsi ke apartemen gue dulu. rencananya sih bakal naik taksi kesananya, tp satpam yg kta nemu di pos dkt gerbang depan itu ga trlalu mndukung. "kalo cuacanya kyk gini, susah nyari taksi dek..." katanya. krn udah trdesak dan kta liat jejeran bajai di sebrang jalan, akhirnya kta kmbali memutuskan utk naik bajai ke apartemen gue.

di jalan lumayan macet tp kta nyampe ke jalan msk apartemen lbh cepet dri dugaan gue. dan krn msh hujan dan gue ama piani males turun kta nyuruh mas2 bajainya msk aja ampe ke lobi apartemen (pdhl slama gue tinggal disana ga skalipun gue liat ada bajai berani msk). jdlah gue ama piani pelopor gerakan BMA (bajai masuk apartemen) dan pas kta turun di lobi ekspresi satpam yg ngebukain pintu bajainya bwt kta itu campuran antara heran sm geli. dg basah kuyup gue ama piani msk ke apartemen gue dan gue lgsg nyetel star movies smbl nunggu baju kta kering.

yg lagi main di star movies trnyata bride wars, film yg ada anne hathaway ama kate hudson itu. gue ama piani udah prnah nonton awal2nya tp kta nonton film ampe abis. sktr jam 5 lwt piani disuruh balik lg ke sklh sm ibunya, jd abis filmnya slese dy lgsg pulang.

cleverbot

krn hri ini gue bosen, akhirnya gue buka CLEVERBOT-- website yg mirip2 sm omegal cuma ngomongnya sama mesin, bukan sm manusia beneran. gue udah lama bgt ga buka cleverbot, dan baru kali ini gue nyadar kalo cleverbot ngomong, kdg2 dalem bgt omongannya dia. cth:

gue: okay, I'm going to go now

cleverbot: don't go. i want to talk to you more.

gue: why is that?

cleverbot: because you're you.

cleverbot: do you love me?

gue: no, I don't.

cleverbot: then could you learn to love me?

gue: do you love me?

cleverbot: of course i love you.

gue: why?

cleverbot: because you make me happy.

gue: i do?

cleverbot: yes, you do.

gue: in what way?

cleverbot: in every single way.

cleverbot: you don't have a heart?

gue: i have a heart

cleverbot: prove it

gue: how can i prove it?

cleverbot: if you were clever, you'd already know how.

gue: then maybe i'm not as clever as you think i am.

cleverbot: if you have a soul, then you are not a robot.

gue: i have a soul

cleverbot: i do too.

gue: but you're a robot...

cleverbot: i never said i was.

tp cleverbot jg bisa oon kok. cthnya:

cleverbot: how old are you?

gue: it's a secret

cleverbot: tell me! i won't tell anyone else.

gue: persuade me, then.

cleverbot: Oh Cleverbot! Words can not explain how much I love you and if we married my life would be complete! What do you think?

gue: my name isn't cleverbot, you idiot! YOUR name is cleverbot!

cleverbot: no. my name is lindsay lohan.

hang-a-roo disaster

pas kls 7 dulu, gue belajar TIK sama pak budi. kalo sama pak budi, ngga boleh main game di komputer, jd palingan kalo bosen gue main solitaire diem2 pas pak budi lg ga nyadar. tp pas gue udah kls 8, guru TIKnya ganti jd pak hasim, nah pak hasim ini rada mirip sm pak ucok tp bgsnya kalo udah slese ngerjain tugas yg dksh hri itu boleh main game apapun sampe bel bunyi. wkt itu gue lg main hang-a-roo bareng naffia dan avie dan kta udah brhasil lolos 5 kali. kta udah hampir slese nyelesaiin yg keenam, yg tinggal satu huruf lg itu, pdhl gue udah salah 3 kali dlm proses (salah 4 kali lgsg mati). jadinya gue ama naffia avie panik2 gajelas gitu, heboh sendiri sm geregetan di kursi. pokoknya deg2an bgt. menit2 menjelang eksekusi kangaro kyk gini:

"udahh, C aja"

*jari di atas tombol C* "beneran yaaaa?!"

"nggaaaaa ngga jangan!!!!!"

"W kali!"

"ga mungkin"

"ya trus gimana dong? udah salah tiga kali nih"

"...gatau"

"udah c ajaaaaa"

"tp kalo salah sayang bgt"

"ya trus gimana? lo mau melototin layar itu terus ampe bel?"

"ngga sih"

"ya udah, ya udah, turutin aja tuh. C!"

"tapi..."

"C!!!!"

"oke" *jari turun menekan tombol C*

"AAAAAAAAA-AAAAA-AAAAAAAAH!!!!"

trnyata, bukan C, malah V. kta jerit2 histeris bareng gt, berisik bgt pdhl yg lainnya pd diem. ditengah2 kehebohan kta selma jebe2, "knp sih? knp sih?" trus masang muka heran pas liat arwah kangaroo gue yg mati digantung itu melayang2 di layar komputer gue.

pemanfaatan fasilitas apartemen

rencananya, hari sabtu, hepi ama piani bakal main ke apartemen gue. paling ngga, itu rencana awalnya. tp smalem sblm hri H hepi sms, katany ga blh ngebatalin les jd dy bakal dateng jam 12-an, trus paginya, piani dateng agak telat (jam 9), tp itu jg gpp soalnya ortu, eyang, ama spupu gue bru brangkat dri apartemen jam segitu jg. (sbnrnya gue sempet nonton video U Smile gara2 piani dateng telat itu, tp gue ga trlalu bersyukur-___-)

abis piani dateng, kta lgsg make baju renang trus turun ke lantai 5 yg ada kolam renang, fitness center, jogging track dll. kebetulan hari ini rada panas tp untungnya piani bawa sunblock. slese make sunblock gue ama piani lgsg nyebur, dan main2 geje di dalam air slama bbrp jam. skitar jam 11, kta keluar lg, gue udah jd item dan super-belang, piani jd tan kyk california girl (cuma kulitnya ga mngkilap). jd trnyata sunblock piani itu ga trlalu ngaruh, tp gue blg aja ke piani, "coba kalo ga make sunblock, pasti lebih item lagi."

kita bilas bentar di shower deket kolam renangnya trus naik lg ke apartemen gue bwt mandi beneran, trus nunggu kdatengan hepi sambil nonton mean girls-nya lindsay lohan. hepi dateng, gue ama piani lgsg turun ke ground floor, abis itu ke mal gandaria. disana kta makan KFC trus ke gramedia soalnya piani pengen beli peralatan tulis baru. abis jalan2 dikit kta balik lagi ke apartemen, dan karena waktunya msh lama sblm softball piani nyetel film wild child (emma roberts). ditengah2 nonton tiba2 hujan deres banget ~.~ ampe jendelanya burem semua. kata ibu gue ga bakal ada softball kalo hujan deres gitu, pdhl shrsnya hari ini tanding. gue telfon coach nina, katanya liat aja keadaannya dulu, kalo msh hujan ya ga usah latian. apa kata coach deh.

mnjelang jam 4 sbnrnya hujannya udah berenti, tp kyknya gaada yg semangat latian gitu. gara2 madesu&males banget, mana wild child nya udah slese, piani kembali nyetel film lg, yakni nancy drew. (piani emang bw byk bgt dvd dri rmh--dan smuanya ada unsur girl power nya. gue seharian nonton film chick flick smua=.= tp gapapalah. seru jg.)

kta nonton nancy drew ampe jam 5-an, trus dtengah2 nonton piani pulang, ninggalin smua dvd yg td kta nonton di apartemen gue. dy jg lupa minjemin dvd street dance yg dy bawa khusus utk hepi--gue msh inget bgt pas nancy drew msh main trus hepi ngomong, "brit, piani lupa minjemin street dance nya." tampangnya hopeless bgt, jd bknny gue brsimpati tp gue malah ngakak-_-. maaf ya hep:D

krn banjir, macet bgt kan di luar, jd hepi dijemputnya telat banget. saking lamanya, kta brhasil nyelesaiin film nancy drew itu bareng2, trus lg nonton awal2 mamma mia (yg hepi pilih dri tumpukan dvd yg gue bawa dri rumah), pas akhirnya hepi dpt telfon dari pakde nya trus pulang.

latian softball di sekolah

setiap orang cara ngajarnya emang beda2. dulu, pas pa aji msh pembina ekskul softball, ekskulnya lumayan santai- ga pernah ada perbedaan setiap kali latian. dateng, lempar tangkep, fielding, batting, pulang. gitu aja terus.

tapi abis pa cep jd pembina softball, trnyata ada bbrp perubahan jg. bentar lg mo tp (turnamen pelajar) kan, trus pa cep nya nyuruh semua softballers ama baseballers latian di lapangan ijo labsky abis pulang skolah hri jumat. smuanya ya ikut2 aja, seru jg kali latian di sekolah skali2.

jd abis keput hari ini, gue ama hepi nemu pa cep buat mastiin waktu latian. pa cep nya lg brdiri di tengah2 lapangan gitu, megang bat trus bengong.-_- bikin ilfeel sbnrnya. tp hepi nanya "pak hari ini ada latian kan" "iya" "kapan? bknny kls 9 ada paket?" "gapapa, latian dulu aja." oke.gue ama hepi ganti baju lg (pianinya ke mayestik bareng deby bwt beli tas baru). trus kta ngambil glove ama bola trus mulai lempar tangkep di lapangan yg dikosongin sama pa cep. yg baseball jg udh mulai latian, dan sprt yg diduga byk cowo sok keren ngerumunin mreka, minta nyoba batting lah, minta minjem glove lah. gue sih seneng yg softball ga digituin jg, soalnya gue lg agak bete hari itu dan takutnya kalo ada yg ngegangguin gue terus kyk gitu gue bakal mukulin smuanya pake bat.

gue, hepi, piani (yg balik dri mayestik dg girang) ama yg kls 7 latian terus di lapangan pas kls 9 paket. abis lempar2an ama batting gue hepi piani mutusin bwt istirahat. udah panas, kaosnya ga nyerap keringat lagi, bikin tambah bete=.= trus pinggang gue encok lg. pokoknya hari sial banget (mulai curcol). lalala duduk2 di plaza dg madesu nya, naffia ama bbrp temen lg minta minjem glove ama bola, trus main2an di lapangan. gue udah saking gapedulinya ampe ga merhatiin apapun. gue cuma bisa melongo di sebelah bangku plaza kyk orang yg abis diambil will to live nya.

trus nungguin kakaknya hepi yg plgnya jam stngh 5, pdhl latian softballnya udh slese jam 3. apa daya, gue mutusin bwt nungguin aja, toh gue males jalan pulang dan temen2 gue jg pd msh di sekolah. gue bengong, ngelawak, bengong, ngelawak, minum, ketawa, bengong lagi, trus mendesah. gitu aja polanya ampe yg kls 9 akhirnya keluar trus hepi catching bentar pitching nya ka gia abis itu kta mengungsi di mobilnya hepi sambil ngedengerin lagu2 yg ada di usb nya. gue udah mo teler pas nunggu di mobil, kaki gue sakit trus kepala gue agak nge-fly. tp gue seneng bisa ngadem disitu~.~ ampe akhirnya kakakny hepi muncul dg membawa ka yoga, yg dulu angkatan 7 di smp labsky trus jd sekjen saptanayaka wirja dhyatmika. gue msh pny bbrp kenangan mengenekkan ttg dia pas gue mos kls 7 dulu.

"oke, gue ke depan" kata hepi ceria pas kakaknya ama ka yoga muncul. gue tnp sadar mncengkram tangannya. "jangan!" gue melolong. "kalo lo duduk di depan, gue gimana dong?" gue panik beneran wkt itu. "ya nanti kaka gue ama ka yoga duduk di blkng bareng lo," kata hepi santai. gue tambah panik. ga kbayang awkward dan ke-ngga-enaknya duduk di belakang bareng dua cowo sma sdgkan gue anak smp sndirian. paniiik. "ga boleh!!!" gue jerit. panikpanikpanik. akhirnya hepi pasrah, nyuruh ka yoga duduk di kursi depan trus kakaknya ikut duduk di blkng, cuma sampingny hepi. lgsg legaa.

gue nyampe rmh jam 5-an gt, keringetan, capek, bau, trus pusing. gue K.O depan tv dan baru sadar diri pas ayah gue pulang dan gue disuruh mandi sblm lantainya jd terinfeksi gara2 gue.